Dream sweetest..
But I can't sleep tonight!
So many crazy fuzzy thoughts running my mind!
Feel kinda scared that nothing that I've thought about would ever work out..
Wish all these worries would come to an end.
I want to reach that future where I could talk about these days and laugh😁😂
But it can never be soon.
It seems soo far away..
Kid was I years ago with hopes and hopes and hopes..
Hopes that make you fly up up high;
Fearless of the turbulent winds.
The grip and recoil are too strong.
There's the control of a pro pubg player.
But here I am, an adult stuck in the middle of nowhere.
Sometimes I wish I weren't the one alive.
Wish my twin had lived instead!!
Why me? why do I have to go through this phase?
I can taste and feel this meaninglessness even though I try not to..
I tend not to fall down like this..
But
in the dark of the night when all by myself:
I can hear each and every thoughts colliding with each other..
I just wait and wait for the time when it would all explode..
The combustion could lead me somewhere.
Somehow..

(Fredi, I stopped writing.. But I had to after u asked me to😚.. It always lughtens my burdens after I do so.. Tq for encouraging me😇)

© @Simba Mongzar