I wasn’t sure if the pain I felt would go away
or would it stay.
an if it had to be the pain I felt
I’d never want my worst enemy
to have to feel this pain
cause this pain it ain’t right!

I look to the light
hoping GOD see it’s me
an with his almighty shield
sends this pain away from me.

why is it me?
what did I do?
is this all because I said
I’d love you?
or is it cause you said some
fucked up shit,
too someone who was supposed to be our friend!

I read what you wrote.
you claimed it was all a joke!
but if the joke was on you what would you do?
would you hurt like me,
or would you make it seem like
it was all because of me.

before we’d go any further
if you could just understand
1 thing.
I’ve played every scenario
in my head.
I must have pushed rewind a thousand times.
just to come back to the same sign.

it hurt me cause I thought we were closer then what you started to show me. yelling at me like I’m the one who said when was the last time I gave you some good head.
my heart sank it hit the floor
now I’m scrambling around
for the lord to aboard.
for him to take the pain away
ir maybe hace that eagles eye
an look around just to see
who seen me get spund around.

was this just the beginning of a big mess.
everything was fine
like the midnight shadow.
it’s like Cinderella was just something else they could say
was I gonna stay or was I gonna go.

boy bet this dime
how come every time I’m the one who’s going blind.
it’s just in my fortune that the hood times
shall come. an the LORD finally spoke to me.
check it out this is what he said
my dearest Aj
you’ve come so far
everything might not be right but for now
you take this shinning star.

Everything I’ve ever said bad about how he wasn’t real
I said it in a moment of time
now I catch myself pressing rewind
the hands of time,
when I thought about being fruitful.
not for you but it was about me.
see forgiveness is the person who wants to make it right.
forgive an forget
was how it was said.

can you see yourself
it was coming to an end
but it’s not the end
it’s the beginning to something
that’s a grand slam
it pushes me to want to
be here for you
cause I’m a child of GOD
just like you..

words repeat by this time this shits real deep
I’m trying to get you to understand
the fact that your gonna always be MY man
an I’m your GIRL.
an it’s gonna be this way even when we have some bad days.
but remembering the hood with the bad
that’s what’s keeping me from being so sad.

I never hated you
even though you want me too.
I just know that every time I look at you I feel intrigued by all of your energy.
strong an determined
I wanna be your only woman besides mable
an that’s because she’s the woman who made you
she made you for me. an he made me for you
but if you don’t care there’s more I’d like to share
but that will be determined by the MAN above cause he showed me how to love you

he reminds me that with time all the things enchanted to us will be the same things that we discussed with GOD over brunch.
I’m not preaching just trying to keep it real with you an me cause I’m the end you were my only true FRIEND.

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