I walk alone and make sure I stay close to the ground
Because I can't let myself be seen
I know I can't make any sound
I hold the pain close to my chest
Let the tears fall free
Always simply trying my best
And yet nobody can see
Pain stays in my body and sinks me down to the depths
Washed away in the sea that's just filled with regrets
I let the room start to spin as I fall to the floor
Let the blood spill out
Cause I can't feel anymore
Hold the hope, feel the light,
Hold the faith in the night
I'm blinded by the dark cloud still in my sight
I feel the hope, I feel the pain, I feel the light and the shame
I feel I'm feeling too much
That's all I have to my name
The only one I can point to is me
I'm the problem
I'm the one causing all of the mess
I can't take the rose glasses off and it's taking my breath
I can't silence the thoughts of impending doom
I can't even get up anymore to clean up this room
I can't seem to do anything right
All I do is stay awake and hold the pain in my fists tight
Wrists filled with scars and covered in blood
My heart keeps bleeding and I'm soaked from the flood
Of emotions and chaos from the tantalizing twister
The one that destroyed little me, and my God, do I miss her
She had a heart full of hope, an innocence to adore
And life broke her so bad
She locked herself behind a door
She's never come back out and she's no longer sure
She can't hear you, but I can
She's not here anymore
But I am
And I can try to make things right again
I can keep getting back up and fighting and moving on
I can sit right here and put the pain inside a poem
And maybe that'll help to heal all of this pain
While I stay loathsome
And wonder where I'd went wrong
When I'm supposed to be strong
But I'm not and that's the truth
I'm tired of playing along

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