When I was a youngling ,
I was loud,
I smiled a lot,
I didn't care what others thought of me,
I was content,
I was 80% happy with life.

But then came the harsh waves of reality,
It knocked me right off my feet,
And I stopped looking through rose tinted glasses.

I became silent,
I smiled less,
I took every word and worried about how others saw me,
I withdrew into myself,
I became 50% happy with life.

But life and fate was just getting started with me,
Another wave of reality hit me hard,
But this time I didn't get up,
I just gave up,
I just let the waters of the vast abyss draw me into its depths.

Now, I'm just a shadow,
I'm a broken shell of the past,
I don't care of the opinions of others,
I just give a fake smile when needed,
I just observe everything through this cage bars,
I'm 20% happy with life.

But I know that the worst is yet to come,
I know that I'm drowning in the depths,
I can't call out for help,
I'm too far gone,
And when I reach the bottom of this abyss,
When I reach 0% ,
I wonder what will happen.


© Enma Eden