I don't belong
I have always felt like I don't belong any where in this world
I only felt good in my room when I'm alone
and I wanna express it
but how can I find the words to express a feeling me myself don't know
it won't get less it just grows
it will never feel the same
when I was nine and happy
when I never felt unworthy
but now I'm going insane
am I really the same person I was six years ago
when I never thought about what I say
when I never thought about the play my life became
when I never pray to God to take me away from this world
or never exist
it was never even a small thought
but now my life is sore
better than some worst than most
it feels like I don't deserve the gifts I was given by the lord
like the body I own
I don't deserve it
a disabled person could've needed it more
not even in my body I belong not even in my room anymore
I scream and shout
and cry for help
in a voiceless way
no one notices or cares
'cause I'm just a dramatic teen they say
maybe they're right
but I still can't fight the feeling that they're wrong
I switch the light off and on hoping for a change
but it's still the same
family shouting
and I'm listening
waiting for them to finish to tell them I can't change
change is something I truly crave
but I'm always the same
making every one sad and mad and I'm glad I have the option of staying away
but not for a long period I stay
I always have to see and speak and it seems like this is just how the world works
and that's why I don't belong
I always have my mask on
the mask of being quiet all the time
the mask of hiding under a screen and never seen
looks like I belong in my dreams
oh wait
I don't belong there either
© E_M_M_A
I only felt good in my room when I'm alone
and I wanna express it
but how can I find the words to express a feeling me myself don't know
it won't get less it just grows
it will never feel the same
when I was nine and happy
when I never felt unworthy
but now I'm going insane
am I really the same person I was six years ago
when I never thought about what I say
when I never thought about the play my life became
when I never pray to God to take me away from this world
or never exist
it was never even a small thought
but now my life is sore
better than some worst than most
it feels like I don't deserve the gifts I was given by the lord
like the body I own
I don't deserve it
a disabled person could've needed it more
not even in my body I belong not even in my room anymore
I scream and shout
and cry for help
in a voiceless way
no one notices or cares
'cause I'm just a dramatic teen they say
maybe they're right
but I still can't fight the feeling that they're wrong
I switch the light off and on hoping for a change
but it's still the same
family shouting
and I'm listening
waiting for them to finish to tell them I can't change
change is something I truly crave
but I'm always the same
making every one sad and mad and I'm glad I have the option of staying away
but not for a long period I stay
I always have to see and speak and it seems like this is just how the world works
and that's why I don't belong
I always have my mask on
the mask of being quiet all the time
the mask of hiding under a screen and never seen
looks like I belong in my dreams
oh wait
I don't belong there either
© E_M_M_A