I have always felt like I don't belong any where in this world

I only felt good in my room when I'm alone

and I wanna express it

but how can I find the words to express a feeling me myself don't know

it won't get less it just grows

it will never feel the same

when I was nine and happy

when I never felt unworthy

but now I'm going insane

am I really the same person I was six years ago

when I never thought about what I say

when I never thought about the play my life became

when I never pray to God to take me away from this world

or never exist

it was never even a small thought

but now my life is sore

better than some worst than most

it feels like I don't deserve...