The seams on the hole in my heart seems to have come undone and I don't appear to have enough thread to fix it
But I obviously can't ask you to do it for me, you seem the type to fix your wound with superglue and dental floss
Glue can't hold this together and the mint burns worse than the pain
The pain is manageable, I've always been able to handle pain
It's that empty hollow I cannot handle, the pit inside that is so deep it almost has a gravity to it. The feeling of falling forever, the emptiness never ending that is what I cannot handle
But I know the pain comes first
The splitting, the cracking, the bleeding
Oh, whatever could have caused it?
Millions of miles away from you and hundreds away from home
Perhaps the distance stretched the strings too far
Maybe they just lost their elasticity for a moment, maybe time will heal me
But time has never healed me before
I've only felt alive in someone's arms
So hold me, I beg, kiss me better, and be my healer
Oh if only, I plead, this wasn't too big a burden to ask of you
Oh if only, I sob, you weren't made of super glue and dental floss
Oh if only, I sigh, I wasn't made of shredded fabric and thread scraps
Perhaps in another life, I ponder, your healing could be compatible with mine, and mine with yours
Maybe one day, I dream, in that life i will meet you again
I see it now, i exclam, i see your ship at shore
I can hear them now, i gasp, the bells as it docks
I can smell it now, i hum, the sand between my toes as i run to you
I taste it now, i laugh, the salt in the air on my tongue
I can feel it now, i whisper, your arms around me
In another life another world
I could tell you how i see you
I could tell you how i feel
One day
Maybe you'll see these, hear these
Odes to you
Didn't i say
I only write poetry
When im unhappy?
Don't worry goddess
I swear it
Its only my fear of losing you that ails me
Happiest ive ever been is in the glow of your smile, the warmth of your laugh
But your smile is directed at another, your laugh in his ear and not mine, your bed without me by your side
You love me you swear it
And i believe you
I can share and so can you
I don't trust that he can
Ive never been the first choice you see
And its the familiar fear of being discarded that ails me
One day I'll be able to tell you
© SpiderMoose