Self aware, yet oblivious and scared
I’ll just convince myself you cared
Obvious target, broken hearted
Whether I’m ready or not
I’ll always be out-smarted

I could fall for anyone
All it takes is for them to be kind
And feelings will explode
Like fireworks across my mind

Here I am I’m back where I started
Even worse now that we’ve parted
I let myself be manipulated
Just to feel a drop of false love
Let you throw me around, push and shove
Words we wished to say, left unspoken
Yet like all the others, you hurt the broken

I’d thought perhaps you wouldn’t mind
If I told you all my secrets and cried
Just to realize you don’t care if I’m fine
You just want to take this happiness of mine

And they all want a distraction
Ill try my best not to give them the satisfaction
But I’d do anything for them, I can’t stay away
I’ll go home and pray that they feel the same way

Yet I’m a hypocrite, because I’ll use myself
I’m critically just as bad as anyone else
I’ve been broken so many times
There is no more room left for me inside
© VeyaRaya