I’ve wasted years of my life,
Wondering why no one wanted to stay by my side.
I’ve wasted years of my life,
Ignoring all the potential that I have and all the warning signs.
I’ve wasted years of my life,
Debating whether or not people even wanted me alive.
I’ve wasted years of my life,
Trying to decipher the difference between what’s considered wrong or right.

I’ve wasted years of my life,
Watching time make laps around my distressing figure,
Watched it going round and round in circles as my vision of the future became so unclear I,
Wished that I could grab it and shake it till it told me all of its dirty secrets.
Because if I want hope for happiness then that’s not a hefty price I’ll have to pay,
I can compensate for that damage as long as time can compensate for mine as well today.

Everyday, I felt it mocking me as it passed by my amble body,
Slowing down only to ridicule me further,
As I watched my days start to blend together.
It felt as if a new one never even happened to exist,
So pay me back my wasted years because this trigger is really difficult to resist.

If you want me to let you go then maybe you should hurry up.
I won’t let my future be decided by someone as disdain as luck.
I can wait all day with the barrel pointed at your gut,
But you might want to reconsider making me feel bored you little mut.
You’ve been training me with all your games and tricks that you’ve always loved to play,
So I dont mind waiting if it means that in the end you’re gonna have to pay.
Though you really shouldn’t test my patience,
I can take your life faster than I’ve had to push everyone away.
I know you’d hate that so I’d greatly appreciate your complaisance,
And no you won’t get to have a say.
© Grinchy