As I laid down in a pool of blood smelling like dried cum I wondered how first time sex was supposed to be.
too ashamed to cover nor to move
I played dead as I recollected my first time sex.
how ten no's had turned the young man on .
how my scream was a melody to his ear.
how my begging had reminded him of Fifty shades of black.
if I may say it wasn't romantic as the novels portray it nor was it beautiful.
it was fast
slow
painful
brutal
scary
confusing for a moment I thought it was a nightmare.
© zita