Guilt-ridden, in my head I said "I'm sorry."
For the time I've hurt(ed) you.
For many times I wished my demise.
As you're fighting for my life.

So many times, I've given up.
So many tears you've dropped.
Just for you son to be selfish.
To not think what you and other feels.

So many days I've isolated myself.
Trying to push everyone away.
Just in hope I can do my selfish desires.
To end the days full of misery.

You all, are the star in my universe.
The light of my darkness.
Yearning for the warmth of that one star.
But it's so immense, that I've wandered the wrong way.
© Benny

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