These days I can't feel
It feels all, at a stand still
A far cry from the rush I once felt

These days I seem to see clearly
A little more than I would like to
With those emotion's out of the way
I could finally breathe

Yet each breath taken feels wrong
It's a suffocating feeling,
And I know something is wrong

I could feel it
Yet rationality tells me otherwise
But I find myself scared of being alone
For only in those times,

Could I hear my heartbeat,
Against the bloodcurdling silence
My calm breaths like screams of horror
The anxiety envelopes me

As my nails dig deeper
Trying to pinch myself awake
Yet I still feel nothing
And I know I should stop
But I hold on tighter
till I feel a slight

In that moment,
Where I hit the climax
It all fades
Suddenly it seems all in my head
Still the marks of my fingers on my skin
I see tell me otherwise






© Dena's_poetry