There I go again,
feeling the feeling, and
thinking the thought and
reminiscing so much about years ago

coming into life again
the pain of yesterday
nothing seems to lift again
I'm even scared to pray from where I'll gain
all strength to reign
and as i aim

searching encouragement i fine none
no answer at all
who'll lift me from this strange spirit
First the man inside me
now the son of Jezebel outside me

Every one of the experience feels different
enslaving me to anger and pain
hatred and bitterness
more for myself than for them
...