The emptiness seems to be eating me up.
Thought it was easy but now I know it's not.
Forced to leave, but then was called childish.
Patient enough but it was never enough.

Now I'm laying,
In the cold hands of pains.
Because you had something to gain.
Did you have to that cruel?
To let it all go?
Without trying to fight for it?

Oh!
I was called childish,
How can I forget?
Because I choose love,
Over being a whore.
Stayed in the dark for endless days.
Deserted food for numbers of days,
Now I have grown thin.
As pain squeeze me lean.

Watching you everyday feels like a cold knife is being stabbed into my heart.
But it's no big deal for you.
You moved on quite fast.

I wanted to work it out,
But you kicked me out.

Now darkness is all I have left.
Pain has been my best companion.
It now feels as if my purpose on earth is to receive pains.
© kaya N