I can’t speak.
Not without making you cry.
I can’t listen.
Not without you waiting for a remark.
I can’t look at you.
Not without you wondering if I’m looking behind you.
I can’t admire you.
Not without being judged for staring.
I can’t forgive.
Not without you worrying what strings are attached
I can’t remind.
Not without you thinking I’m judging.
I can’t be sad.
Not without you worrying it’s because of you.
I can’t be happy.
Not without you wondering why I’m not upset.

I can’t be happy.
I can’t be sad.
I can’t remember.
I can’t forget.
I can’t be amazed.
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