Side note. This may be very triggering for some people regarding SA, Reader discretion advised. Also, this is very personal to me so please be gentle with me
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You date raped me
I’m at your place
We’re having a good time
Or so I think
Next thing I know I blink
Im in ur bed
Ur cuddling up to my body, putting your hand on the top of my head
In the beginning you made me feel kind of weird
With your tone and agression
Your words masked with fear
Had me feeling kind of weary
Your dominant vocal style and the way ur body moved made me uncomfortable
I would rather be in a zoo with a caged animal
At least I know in the beginning what I’m dealing with
Felt like your prey but I tried to play it cool
I developed a new attitude just for you
Made myself smaller and thinner
Wanting the male gaze to fit apon my chest perfectly
Like a flower about to blossom
Just wanted to be good for you
Wanted to be your flower without being snipped
I should of dipped when I had the chance
Cause you date raped me
You were sending me confused signals
Back and forth
Putting all the blame on me when I had something to say
You said you were straight forward and upfront
But I think that’s just a lie you tell yourself to not seem verbally abusive
Later that night
You said you wanted sex and I said I didn’t
When you got upset I switched onto to a better sexual position
For you
I then told you I wanted to fuck and you told me you weren’t in the mood
Miss communication had me turing black and blue
Eventually you kissed me as we lay under your gray sheets at 2am
Told me you wanted me
So we fucked
You were on top of me
Kissing me and fake making love
I let you stick your dick inside me
I consented to sex
Your dick fit like a glove
That wasn’t the issue
My issue was that I wanted to be safe
I told you not to cum in me
Pull out or wear a condom
It’s easy Peezy lemon squeezy
At least i thought it was
Instead you said no
At first i thought it was some sort of joke
But then i got more uncomfortable
Told you to pull out cause i was starting to feel claustrophobic
You was beating up the pussy but you lost my consent
Got so scared I tried pushing you off of me
I begged and cried like some trapped child
Eventually after telling you to stop multiple times and that I didn’t want this I tried hoping off your dick
You held me down fucking me like I was some sexual object
Your dominant side came out but you were doing to much
I started to scream and cry
I said you aren’t gonna do this to me
I’m not some victim you can abuse
I had to literally push myself off of him while I verbally pleaded and begged
Eventually you stopped but it came at a cost
I got date raped by you
You started yelling at me and blaming me for the destruction you caused
I just wanted to hide in my shell and run away
You berated me with your words as I put on my clothes
I felt so used and digusted
I felt wronged and abused
Your a crazy man who rapes other men
I can’t believe you did that to me
Without my understanding consent
You kept yelling at me so I put on my clothes and walked away
Told you you didn’t understand boundaries and what consent actually means
A 30 year old man still sexual abusing others is fucking crazy
It’s diabolical how when your pretty and fit you can get away with almost anything
Even fucking sexual assaulting someone else
After you yelled at me
I Drove home but had no words to say
Got so wrapped up in my emotions I was drawing a internal blank
When I got home I smoked some cigarette to numb the internal pain
What a fucking night to get date raped

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