I'm a an empath
I 'feel' that's what we do.
That's what I've always done.
I feel so deeply on every level it hurts,
such a curse and a blessing.
What a horrible beautiful consequence of actions and reactions, traction and contradiction and ultimately malfunction.
I breathe again, re-centre, realign, replenish and take time.
All the while I feel your intentions your inclinations your fornications.
Your lies, betrayal, insecurities,
your arrogance, love, hate and pain.
I feel it all,
over and over again like rain
every single drop sponged, unable to just let it wash away.
I wish I was a duck so It would run down my back, without absorbing all the pain.
What a curse what a vase what a beautiful empty window frame.
So much light and darkness,
unfiltered, unmetered an unadulterated range.
Often too deep and constant enough to drive us insane.
Untill ...
We transmute, release, alchemise and heal, only to do it all over again.
There's nothing more painful and brave than to transmute night into day.


© Hanan Mohamed Fouad