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Let it in
Tired as am I,
weary is my soul and mind
from indulging
in these poisonous but addictive tasks.

But for what reason?
What was the reason for my beginning?
I wonder,
the hope and motivation I felt someday,
where did they all vanish?

The reason of my fallings,
a sickness for an illness,
a disorder, a crazy mind,
All demons I have to keep fighting,
fighting a war from dawns till
fighting countless wars,
An army of thoughts and only Me.

I wonder if I will ever win?
And if I don't win, can I at least be
at peace one day ?

I am tired of reminding myself.
I don't find any meaning anymore,
everything seems for naught,
why doI keep on reminding myself to continue this,
when I have no single idea where it might lead me?


I am so so tired,
but now even sleep is abandoning me and headaches have become my best friend.

Why, and for what reason can't I see the light, when I tend to lose it in the darkness,
Is it so dim that even my open windows won't let them in?

I hope,
Hope to let it in,
and lead me on the path of bliss.
Please,
let me find you and embrace you.




© Ophelia