I lost a lot of friends I thought were cool
me being with them made me look like a fool
the years of drinking they forced me to hide
when I was with them, they made me denied.
I questioned my race & questioned my truth
drinking took me away from my fucked up youth
the years and years of me drinking from pain
I looked at the world with anger and disdain.
I've been with women and I've been with men
yet they were more loyal than my very best friends
the things that I saw with my very own eyes
I drank a lot when my pain was disguised.
The anger and rage that's deep in my heart
when I had a drink, my world was apart
the years and years of me denying my youth
I'm clean and sober and I'm telling the truth.




© Josiah Bhola Hillaire