She loves me,
She loves me not
She loves me,
I think she loves me…
Does she love me?!
YES!
She loves how I take care of her
She loves how I make her feel
She loves me very thing I do for her,
Even though I’m exhausted,
Tired,
Overwhelmed but she loves me
She loves how I take the blame for everything,
Even when it’s not my fault
She loves how I apologize to her for being the way that I am and not the way she wants me to be
She loves how her narcissistic ways can make me do anything she wants because I’m too weak of a man to stand up on my behalf,
YES!
SHE LOVES ME!
The way that I crumble when I do something wrong
The silence that comes from my mouth when she destroys my ability to be a man,
To act like a man,
With her cruel,
Intimidating words
I brush it off and pretend that it doesn’t bother me
I ignore everything she says as if I’m Helen Keller
I close my eyes to the pain she causes me as if I’m Ray Charles
Stevie Wonder
I’m always wondering about trying to make her happy because I should be lucky to have a woman that loves me for who I am
But,
You guys don’t know her like I do!
You guys wouldn’t understand!
She’s not abusive!
I mean, she said she wouldn’t do it again
She said she wouldn’t drag me through the mud because I didn’t do what she wanted me to when she wanted me to it
She said she wouldn’t start crying and blame everything on me because she’s too immature to take accountability
She said…
She said she loved me!
SHE LOVES ME!…

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