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stuff that goes through my head
god I pray so hard God I keep asking you for guidance and assistance and you finally sent me someone I can share my life with I am so thankful for that please do t let them cheat and hurt and dominate and control and destroy our potential happiness god if you can see me please help me please lord I'm asking you for the love I give so much love I love to make somebody happy I sure do think that things can change with you on my side if you think I deserve this it must be from a past life because I been working hard to be a good person this time I try to understand lord when you got the police shootig. you up in ambulances scaring you half to death locking you in facilities where they sttematically torture poor people life wadnt kind to and give them diabetise and then force feed them medications god I ain't trying to get nobody in trouble j just want my freedom and my life I want to act like nothing ever happened I know when I'm getting killed they come in my apartment while I'm not there of course I think I am getting poisoned I have been sick my whole life for no reason there's one picture of me at my father's and it's covered up with something in front of it near my bedroom if that's what you want to call it probably so I will notice and it will bother me that's how evil they can be they should be tortured for this I don't want them to be but I would be happy about it some all you people with normal lives and families you can trust you are so blessed thank your lucky stars you don't know how life is for some people I would rather of them hated me and been awful to me then act like I'm imporrnant and brainwash hypnotize and manipulate me into being so depebdant on them that I always have to depend o. them some bht when I get my own place they come in while I'm gone one time I left the door unlocked and they didn't know and locked it when they left I got sick when I drank my coffee that day please god don't let them send me to this torture place they dont havenany right god I have been working so hard I finally gor a girlfrined why can't we be happy together why are you so evil