it just started,
i felt it too.
late replies,
stopped being available
I could feel you're still mad through your phone
slowly, I started songs by GraceAbbrams,
just to make feel,
I still go you.

but is that still true,
I don't see us as my eyes did, because half of my sight was filled with you.
I never felt for this,
but was slowly making it a normal
Atleast could see, though love had become bleached.
alot happened,
stomach aches that I didn't have an idea about.
Red eyes, tears, loss of appetite, when your feel there's a load on your chest but its from the inside.
my hair became a problem, itchy feelings on my skin.

Read a couple of quotes
threw caution to the ocean.
little did I know, you' were battling the same demons.
how cold could you really be,
First came in peace and was there in every good moments.
how cold could that not come to your mind, filling me with joy, and love yet after 4 months, it would be come sand dune that would whirl me with the wind.
how cold, being good to each other....how confusing love turning to hate when it wasn't when you hugged, kissed, rubbed, smooched, cuddled with me.
did the same demons haunt you.

I almost bought the idea of a space,
I played GraceAbbrams but this time the queue replayed, 'I miss you, I am sorry.'
the lyrics had your pictures in it.
like our time synced to the bars. the tune spoke me and the environment around.
I teared out and related to the lonely craft
started seeing you in every corner of my apartment
.
.
.
"I miss fighting in your old apartment,
breaking dishes when your disappointed
I still love you, I promise.

*well it is so ambient* currently as I speak.

nothing happened in the way I wanted,
every corner of this house is haunted....
I miss you am sorry,

I don't wanna go think I'll make it worse,
every thing I know bring me back to us.
I don't wanna go, we have been here before,
every way I go leads me back to you.
I don't wanna go think I'll make it worse,
every thing I know bring me back to us.
I don't wanna go, we have been here before,
every way I go leads me back to you.
😭
I don't wanna go think I'll make it worse,
every thing I know bring me back to us.
I don't wanna go, we have been here before,
every way I go leads me back to you."

*played it like a couple of times as I cried at every line.*

grabbed my phone, thought of this same poem and wrote it down, then tore it coz I thought, I wouldn't speak the exact feeling.

do still have out photos as we were smoking
I have a couple of em,
the vape and loud silly words
I think am going mad, I shouldn't have taken a decision to write down this....
everything I know leads me back to us.
sleeping late with your pic on my phone,
honestly I still don't believe you left.
it's not worth , we still need a chance........
Zooming your photo, then screenshots of every part of your face, fighting to put them together like am trying to solve a puzzle that we are lost into

"*I miss fighting in your old apartment.....
every corner of this house is haunted.

I don't wanna I don't wanna go think I'll make it worse,every thing I know bring me back to us.
I don't wanna go, we have been here before,
every way I go leads me back to you.*"




© Kaiso Isaac