Would it be okay for me to leave?
All I feel here is, fear, anxiety, stress.
All I know here is, pain, anger and loss.
I have lost everything and almost everyone I care about.
People turn on me I don't understand.
I try so hard to make everyone else happy,
All it does is tear me down.
You know that you are there for everyone else, you always stand by there side and let them confide.
You don't let them hurt and you hurt more because of it.
Not because you take their pain or hold extra weights,
but actually because there's no one in this world helping you.
Would it be okay for me to leave?
I have it all planned out, time and all.
Would it be okay for me to leave?
I know a good place, and I harm no one else in the process.
Planned it to a tee.
Would it be okay for me to leave?
The pain I feel isn't fair.
I cannot keep feeling this way
This feeling I cannot bare.
Would it be okay for me to leave?
It's obvious no one else wants me here.
I cry every night, I cry alone.
People think I am the happiest girl in the world.
People can't see what they don't want to see, so instead of seeing me,
they see a light holding them here.
They see someone to cry to,
someone to rely on.
They see a happy soul and a shoulder to lie on.
Why can't anyone soothe my pain like I soothe theirs?
I take their pain and put it in my heart so now I have everyone's scars.
There's not a lot that I can take.
So instead I hide it and now I'm fake.
Would it be okay for me to leave?
Nobody would even care unless they need me to take their pain again.
Nobody would notice unless they need money.
Nobody would notice unless they need someone to take out their anger on.
I hide my scars behind a smile.
What happened to your arm?
It was an accident.
Why are you losing so much hair?
I don't know, over brushing?
Why are your eyes so red and puffy?
Don't worry, just an allergy.
I hide because I can't give this pain to anyone else.
Nobody deserves it.
Nobody can handle it.
I can't handle it.
Should I just leave?