Am I the reason why I am this way?
Am I deliberately choosing to be in a rut?
Consciously? or subconsciously?
Why am I escaping reality?
Despite the countless shows, anime and games, Why do I feel unhappy?
A tiny voice at the back of my mind says;
"You're destined for more, yet you settle for less, you're wasting your potential".
I listen to it, and I feel bad for being this way, so why can't I stop?
I hate reality, when a few friends stop and say, "You're talented" I wonder if it's true.
Every day is a repeat of itself, my constant escape from reality, I'm happy temporarily when I escape.
However, it's like a drug to me, whenever I'm done I'm back, unhappy.
I keep telling myself I'd stop and focus the next day but I never do.
The tiny voice tells me;
"Face reality, embrace it, work on yourself, and be who you want to become, you can do it, it's hard but you can".
© Freya Stone