Why am i made to feel like i am a tyrant
The villain
The one who u run from and dont confront
Why is honesty and communication almost obsolete
Am I only here to amuse?
A soundboard? A giant walking ear?
Why i should i remain in the dark?
I only want to know what is real
I feel like I can't be myself
And if I try it only makes people uneasy
Should I just stay silent and nod my head?
Should I warm up to the darkness I keep being left in?
Im running out of options, ideas to make things better
But I guess this is a game where only one person can win
Im not sure if I'll be willing to play
But its thrown in front of me and its not looking to budge
I am over the swallowing and sweeping under the rug
Why can't we all be in the light simultaneously?
So tired of being misunderstood
I feel an inner battle brewing inside
Wanting everyone to be heard, longing for my voice especially
I have no clue what to do next or how-to approach
Should I stay lost?
Would anyone really notice or care?
Knowing the answer weighs heavy in my gut
Having to survive on fakeness may weaken my soul
Accepting unspoken fate is unfathomable
How will this affect my everyday?
My relationships? My well being?
I need to let go but I will loose something in the process
And that's what scares me the most