In a million years I would have never imagined truly falling in love.
I mean, I still had fake scenarios about it.
In these scenarios I was treated in every way I had always dreamt of.
In these scenarios love was as real as I had once believed it to be.
In these scenarios I was happier than ever before in my life.
But then I'd open my eyes and it would all be gone.
The reality of the numerous times I'd had my heart and emotions toyed with would kick in.
And immediately I'd shudder at the thought of being in love.
In a million years I would never have imagined actually hoping for a future with one.
Because even I had adopted these habits of doing things for temporary fun and temporary satisfaction and nothing more.
Which is why in a million years I would have never imagined that you'd one day come along and manage to change my perception of it all.
© janet k.