I am hiding in the bathroom,
On the biggest night of my career,
They don’t notice me,
So I helplessly
Run away, and pretend that I’ve disappeared

I am lonely in the bathroom,
‘Cause my name is stapled all over the news
Think they know my name,
Spit on my grave
Then beg me for an autograph, or two

20 years ago,
I was just a woman,
Who took a dive
And I had no direction
Now I’m helplessly,
Trying to pick up speed
So my name’s not a lost soul
In the sky

But for now I am,
Michelle, who’s unsteady
Michelle, who’s not ready
Michelle, who’s not ready for the future
So what if I do not win?
I am,
Michelle, with a desire,
Michelle, who’s weakened by the fire
Michelle, who’ll soon submerse into a culture

I will hide away, until I can up and leave,
I will stay in here and breathe,
‘Cause if I leave I’ll scream
I’m just
Michelle, who you have battered,
Michelle, who’s simply shattered,
Michelle, who’s in the bathroom by herself

I will step away,
Ignoring all the words you say,
That leave me feeling alone
But it’s hard to ignore the whispers,
Louder than my panicked heart,
And erase my bare and hollowed out bones

And from outside I hear,
People and the mockery of tongues,
They speak and I listen
And inside I sink,
I overthink
‘Cause what if all the work I’ve done,
Throughout my career comes undone?

For now I am,
Michelle, who sits crying,
Michelle, who’s indecisive
Michelle, who’s indecisive of her future
I don’t think I will ever win
I think,
Why do people hate me?
Why do they want to erase me?
It seems like they are praying for my failure

I will sit in here and stir,
I’ll wait ‘til my face is dry
Or maybe I will drink myself to sleep,
Instead, I will not cry
I’m just,
Michelle, who you have battered,
Michelle, who you have shattered,
Michelle, who’s in the bathroom by herself

Knock, knock, knock, knock,
It seems like they need to come in
Knock, knock, knock, knock,
Oh God, now they’re calling
Flash, flash, flash, flash,
They’ve got their news lines written down
Flash, Flash, Flash, Flash
I’ve made a mistake in going out
Bash, Bash, Bash, Bash,
My heart is beating in my chest
Bash, Bash, Bash, Bash,
Why can’t they stop, leave me to rest
Help, Help, Help, Help

I sink, and fall into the ground
And then I open up my eyes
And thank God I’m still alive

And I can’t help but think,
What if I never got the part;
Would they still have loved me?
When I’m feeling down,
I wrap my arms around,
My self,
And say this, seldom, softly from the heart

I am,
Michelle, who has earned this,
Michelle, who’s trying her best,
Michelle, who shouldn’t listen to the haters
I am,
Michelle, who’s right now hurting,
Michelle, who’s right now burning,
In the people’s words, and their reactions

But if I hold my head high,
And I ride this rise,
Their words will start to burn in flames,
And I will touch the sky

I am,
Michelle, with a big smile,
I haven’t for a while
Michelle, who’s earned a place in people’s hearts
Captured from the start
Michelle with a kind heart

All they’ve known about me,
Is I sometimes break
When I leave this room, my God I’m not the same