#WritcoPoemPrompt12
Let her sleep deep,
Let us not weep,
For she is at her journey’s end,
Left with no memories to mend.
If her soul could reply
It would be like:
Hey, Everyone whom I always loved
" I loved you all
but, I couldn't love myself.
You all mattered to me a lot,
that's why, everything you said teared me straight.
Everytime , in the night ,I ended up crying.
What was to blame
Overthinking or Actual Realisation?
whatever it was, it hurted a lot.
Everytime , I tried to end everything
but there was always a voice holding me back,
a little memory dragging me back
to back to yours world,
crushing my thoughts.
Yet it kept happening
all and all again,
to revoke the pain.
So everytime , the courage to do suicide just amplified,
because it never stopped.
It was never easy for me
those moments were hardest
But ,think, I still did it
but couldn't keep up with you all.
Doesn't that say all
that how much worse
actually it was ?
Breaking ,breaking and breaking
down;
till the last drop of my tear
and then,
I finally gave up
cause I couldn't keep up.
Taunts became termites
and there was no use to fight
and to even whom,
to myself? Already I was.
Every explanation to every thought
was" That I am bad human after all
All I did is always wrong".
But a feeble ,little inner me always knew the truth.
It was all I did
until I'm turned into just a soot
but I'm happy
that atlaest that soot will be cherished.
It was all for good
maybe all my ties with you all
weren't meant to be.
Still I tried,
I knited all the knots
with my whole heart
yet the singeing wrath burned it all.
I didn't have the courage to pour my heart ,
to say it all
it was that
I didn't hate you ,ya
just in your debts
but I also didn't love you
but how to actually express it;
afterall,
you both were
My Parents."
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