Back in the days
When the pain was so loud
It would come roaring
Emotions soaring
Telling me to do something,
Something to make it go.
Tears that escaped my orbs.
Reminding me of the misery
Sobs that would force me.
To get up, fight my way out
Of course, I was lonely
Only my feelings by my side....The hurt ones,the painful ones
Those feelings that I could pour into tears, into words, into pencil strokes, into images
That pain, isn't it weird?
To say I have miss it? Those emotions
They used to transform into something else.
Yeah, I miss it
The pain I know now is a stranger
Stranger that is as lazy as I am
This one doesn't make me cry or scream.
Instead, it make me go numb.
I don't go on hours thinking or debating or cursing.
I'm just there by myself.
Emotionless, blank,vacant,void
And all those synonyms of emptiness....
© Eric Lanor