I don't want to grow up
Now No one chase me when I run
Now no one wipes my tears when I cry
No one appreciates me when I get good grades
No one cares if I eat nothing
My friends don't come back after a fight
No one asks if I am fine
No one tries to calm me down
Now no one takes my side
No one cares if i am talking about death
No ones cares if my wrists has Marks
No one cares if I sit alone and sad
No one comes after me when I get angry
No one cares to comfort me
No one cares if I play or not
I hate to grow up
It scares me the most.
To be like them
To be like one if them
No one cares how sick I can be
As long as it's not physically proven
No one knows that I am suicidal
No one listens to me now
No one cares if i am feeling unloved
No one cares if i am feeling safe
Now people learned to cover me
Make me tame
Disciplined,
Submissive,
Perfect,
Obedient,
Selfless,
Beautiful,
No one cares how I feel
Naming it as a phase
No one cares to check the monsters under the bed,
Why would they
Cuz they learn to live inside my head
No one cares if I became silent
Aren't I becoming more obedient?
No one cares if I have to use thousand of ways to make my skin look great
Aren't I becoming beautiful?
No one cares if I don't keep any opinion
Aren't i becoming more disciplined?
No one cares If I take too much stress about my studies
Aren't I becoming perfect?
No one cares if I don't care about myself
Aren't i becoming more selfless?
No one cares if i don't run free now
Aren't I becoming more tame?
No one cares why I kneel in front of those idols
Aren't I becoming more religious?
No one cares if I don't get sleep
Aren't I working just fine?
Give me back my days
When they used to like my chocolate stained cheeks
When my friends know to say sorry when they hurt me
When they chase after me if I ran
When they try to make me laugh when I get angry
When they know to wipe my tears when I cry
When they cares about the shapes I make when I look up to the sky
When they cares if I eat food or not
When they know how to appreciate me after I get good grades
When they know I need someone by my side
When they know I can have bad affect on my mental state by their behaviours
When they know not to judge and mistreat me in my childhood years
I want to be loved again