This day has been a long time coming...
To let go of the past and
stop the tapes from running.

I'm all grown up now,
over 3 decades have gone by,
I have yet to break down..
and let myself cry..

Soon after the divorce
You found a new lover ,
He moved in
no longer were you my mother

You started with the pills
never enough bite,
turned to the needle
morning, noon and night.

His abuse, both physical and mental, I tookl without shedding a tear..
I promised myself not to cry
or show him any fear..

It was the love of my mom
that had been taken from me
for this I hated him
and wanted him to see..

The abuse continued
and the state moved in..
Gave you a choice..
and you choose him.

In my eyes
I wasent enough,
You loved him more...
This cut like a knife
the pain felt to my very core.

What sucks is the cycle lived on.
I followed your lead
now who's to blame??
My kids now bleed.

I know now ...
what I wish I knew then..
Mom's make mistakes too
process this and began to mend.

As fate would have it,
he died from his addiction
To say I cared would be a contradiction.

Your heart was broken
But you didn't cry, you stood tall..
never flinching one time
when you got the call

Now your in your happy place...
dementia allows you to forget
it's as if it never happened
you have no regret.

I feel I have failed you momma,
as your daughter and as a mother,
followed your foofootsteps
and kept everything undercover..

Please know in your heart
I believe you did the best you could
with what you had,
For that , I thank you
I'm no longer mad.

I truly believe we all create our own fate...
You did good Momma
I no longer have hate.

I am so sorry I don't call ,
choosing to remember you at your best...
just know that I love you and wish you the best.

You are still here on earth
but so vert far away...
This letter is my love,
all of it, I give to you today.

I forgive you, Momma
and pray you have forgiven me too..
letting go of the past
and starting anew.

If nothing else...
you taught me to be a trooper,
to go into battle with guns drawn...
I fought my biggest battle,
I won...
Now it's time to move on...

I love you forever Momma.❤❤😘

*** Written to. show a daughter's love for her mother is unconditionally given. There is no mountain you can not climbtogether.... If you still have your mother, show her unconditional love today.****









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