Murder in the first I can't imagine how much it hurts,
I took the earth from under you and left you face down in the dirt,
Space bound just returned rocket hit the ground and just burned,
Trust is now lost can't be found have you questioning all of my words.
Like what other lies did I twist and then turn leaving you always unsure.
Repeat everything you say so you can be reassured,
Starting over having to be taught everything that we've learned,
Handing over everything that I got stuck naked I guess this is rebirth.
Now it's time to put in work to show what I'm worth with progress,
The trust that I've tarnished finding out what it actually feels to be completely honest.
While being consistently second guessed as I try my best not to get upset at the anger you express,
Rightfully aimed I confess I was supposed to be your bulletproof vest instead I was the bullet through your chest.
And that wound I know will never heal,
I sit and sympathize but I know that's something I will never feel,
Even when I say I'm sorry you don't know if it's real,
Almost laid down the armor then forced you to raise your shield.
Gaurd up got your heart carved up if you knew from the start up bet you wouldn't have even started,
Got myself caught up don't know why I never thought of just being honest a trait I must have forgot of like your feelings I just discarded,
like I'm heartless something I subconsciously selfishly disregarded,
Now I'm at the bottom trying to climb to the top and show you our love can still blossom in this scar garden,
Cuz you are my Paradise girl even tho I wish you never even asked but the truth is something that I owe you,
Broke you now for life steady looking at me like am I really telling the whole truth,
Arguments lead to fight almost every single night ending with you needing me to hold you,
Shot down from deadly heights and shattered all the lights sometimes i wish I never even showed you.
What's its like inside the life I warned you not to be apart of from fear it would do exactly what it did,
Now your trapt by a fearsum grip inside you'll forever resent me for exposing it too our...