It's December now
It was a rollercoaster ride but i kinda survived it somehow

This year has been a total mess
They were some beautiful days and some of the terrable once which I don't even wanna address

It's so draining to always have a head with full of thoughts
People just see a smiling face but fails to recognise the bettels behind these smiles that i fought

I don't know how to keep up with my thoughts and life anymore
Its like i have been in dark room for a while and couldn't find a single door

Everything has changed I can sence these changes around me
I feel like I am stuck in a trap and the worst part is I am not even trying to be free

I sometimes feel too much sometimes go numb
Sometimes I am too intelligent but sometimes I go dumb

This is December the end of this year
People are planning for the new year
And I am just scared of what all has happened and i now have so much of fear
© MayAp