#WritcoPoemPrompt15
I see the reflection of my happiness,
In your eyes,
Picture perfect,
Like a bouquet of posies,
Like a sky full of sunshine
but I was selfish

I see the way your eyes search for me
when you see a kid walking by
crystal clear
like the reflection in the pond
like you being a transparent human
but I was selfish

Twice you've asked me why I never sulk like others
In the bed , I turn away the gaze
just to silent you with a kiss
I know am selfish

Hearing your plans for us make me wanna kill myself
Than waiting for her to kill me
ooh..Malignancy is my twin, forget to mention
she's not selfish, I am

Now you want to have a baby
'Funny how the happiest moment of your life can petrify you'
Is it wrong to think that I wanted to end him
so that when am gone
he won't feel a thing..I promise.
Am scared

How can I tell the man who love me like hell,
Who holded my hand when a machine breathed for me
Who self harmed twice when I was in my death bed
that I only got weeks left in me
Am scared, am not scared to die
Am scared he would die









© cal