#Fate

when your backs against the wall
and the decision will affect you all
just remember this time around
I'm putting myself first...
no, it wasn't easy and I cried for days and days...
beating myself up for wanting my inner peace more than I ever have before...
always I put everyone first and cradled their emotions while I slowly died inside ~~
watching each one come out on the other side of a broken line
I only broke more and fell further behind
and kept the hurt locked so outloud inside my silenced mind...
woke one day so numb to the pain that let's be honest I caused myself and had only myself to blame...
So I rose from my bed, where I stayed for days and walked outside to feel the sun's beautiful rays against my dying flesh...
AND in that moment I held my head with all my strength to the sky
tears falling down my face made and a decision that changed my fate...
I took a step with all my might into a direction and then began ~~
TO LIVE MY LIFE...
© author~unknown