I don't have that life
the life of what i want
Seems unreachable to think of
too far away to grasp

Self conscious, judgmental
an Overthinking patrona
None of it should matter,
still it stings..this bloody etching of my persona


Lend me a hint of dreams,
for i am incapable of one
For my heart, soul and mind are just
unwillingly sewn

My trembling breaths,
won't even let it out
This fear of unfairness,
the truth this world is about

What was even the point
of teaching me righteousness,
To even doubt my parents love
as if Nothing but empty caress


Hating my self, my life, my highs
wasn't the begining of enough
Even Lost my peace within this...