It's hard to admit when you need help. you been committed to getting high and lying to your family,friends,lovers,and kids..
but most importantly to yourself.
you just have a thought so buried within your mind that you don't need help,you think you can just quit by yourself without having any complications..
sometimes we gotta except the help
even the medications.
your always the topic of conversations
at family gatherings, or little goody good clicks around your home town.
people dont understand how hard ,how fucking hard it is to just put the drug down, it becomes a part of who you are in some sense, its intense but it's TRUE
I would have never thought walking away from something so destructive could be so fucking hard.
iv lost sight of who I am, and who I need to be, I dont even know who I'm capable of being anymore, because iv run myself so far into the addiction lifestyle, this shits not what I want it's never done anything for me except help me cope with my problems, until it also became a problem. being addicted to drugs and alcohol isn't the life I want to live, it's not the life I want for myself or for my kid, it's the devil's way of controlling you,...