Isn't towards anybody or anything
It's not because of trivial matter
It's eternal, eternal hate that builds
I dont hate anyone
I dont hate anything
I hate myself
Self-hate is a big thing I believe
It can lead to a lot of things
It can start from a lot of things
My self-hate is different
It's just been there as I grew up
Always lurking in the shadows
Hiding in the darkness waiting to strike
Anyone would look at me and ask why
'Why do you hate yourself?'
'How did this start?'
Do I need a reason to hate myself
Do I have to tell some bullshit answer
A lie that you will believe and try to fix
I dont have a reason
Who would like me anyway
I'm an idiot
A brainless person who shouldn't be here
Everything around me turns bad
Everyone around me struggles
How could anyone live like that
Live with a person so infuriating
My self-hate was never something that just developed
It was always with me before...