It's true we humans are deceitful.
I had thought lately that they aren't,
but I was proved wrong
in a rather torturing way!
I had thought that true love
doesn't lie or scorn,
but with the stab I now withhold
in my heart,
I know it does.
I all the time marvel at the great art
of hypnosis you possess,
the lie you made us live, and why!
Thoughts of the fantasy land
you had driven me into
roam through my head and
everyday I wish it continued.
I wonder how you could have
falsely altered all the darkness
that encompassed me into
what I perceived as light.
I everyday wonder, but speechlessness
over takes me when I think of how
you possibly could have
made me change my point of view
into thinking that I too could be loved.
When I wholesomely know that
folks like me are never applauded,
always considered as vectors that spread
the deadly failure ailment.
When I from the very start knew it
that I could neither be loved
nor live a happy life on Earth,
when I have always had it in my head that in the life prepared for me
after this, hell awaits!
You broke me apart,
I have each and every reason
to hate you,
I mysteriously still love you though,
"but why?" everyday I wonder---.

© Joseph