Hide it. They use me. Over and over again. I continue letting me. Why? I care. I always care that's why. Why can't I be emotionless? Don't breathe. Don't cry. Don't smile. Don't love. Every time I do, I die inside. So what did I do to live with what I have and step on pins and needles and eat healthy and just put more stress and pain on everything here. I don't wanna care anymore..I don't wanna be me. I wanna be confident. I wanna, look at the world as home. How? I don't even feel like my own home is home.