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my best attempt
here I am trying my best
but I'm left no other option
I'd rather have a bullet pass through my chest
then deal with the concoction
of thoughts passing through my head
Feeling so emotionally dead
Revealed my cards empty
can't afford the lead
And Its unappealing
to have so much pain
Inside of my brain it's a train wreck
My plans take a rain check
Time with friends the few I've got
Comes to an end before its through
Quite a bind
shame I can't turn back time
Regret what I did but I would still do it
Lie to myself just to get through it
At the doctors in a queue
Waiting for him to tell me what I have to do
Wish I could just have my take two
really is this what my life has come to
But I probably won't do nothing different
And this life somehow I'd miss it
I don't tie the rope
Wash away the stain in my life with soap
And here I am sustaining hope
Find something to have some fun
but yet my mind still comes undone
like a cake in the oven
I'm...