#WritcoPoemPrompt48
Write a poem about a time that your illusions of someone or something were shattered.

I think, I think I used to hold you

the concept of the word and my use of it are by no means the same

in the traditional sense of it maybe but not really

I used to hold you, yes

but in the sense that I cared

it's in the sense that seeing you happy meant something to me

being in your life meant something to me

talking to you about things that upset you upset me because I wanted the best of you

I say this all In the sense that you were my person and I was yours

or atleast I thought so.

but there's this pedestal you place people on

knowingly or not

and when they fall from it

it's hard for them to ever make it back there

I loved you yes, but not in the way a woman loves a man, it was much deeper than that, it was in the fact that I wanted to support you and see you happy

it upset me when everyone else reduced it to romantic perceptions, because it ran deeper, you darling could have been my best friend, my soulmate

but I think at the end of the day only I felt all this

only I thought that way

you were my person but I wasn't yours

and even though countless times you made that clear to me, pushed me away and never apologized for a damn thing, even though we've grown apart over the years

somehow you're still here, no more what you were to me, but somehow still present,

placing you on that pedestal was my mistake

but your presence now is a result of your choices

and a reflection of the fact that for some reason, I can't lock you out

maybe I don't have the strength too

maybe I simply don't want too

whatever it is

it's not the way it used to be

and that's more your fault than it is mine, that, I won't take credit for.


© tonnaV