Hands shaking, holding the letter
A part of me, wishing it holds a life better

"Momma, what's that?", she asks, holding unto me
Her big round eyes, filled with curiosity, trying to see

A smile I hold
To hide how much I was already in fears, untold

It's nothing, really
Go to bed, and don't be silly

My emotions getting the better part of me
Her face mirroring my thoughts, I brought her closer, my tears, not wanting her to see

Darling, it's fine
My fears, in her, I didn't want to confine

But I held her so close to me
As if it'd set all my griefs free

I opened the letter
Reading it letter for letter

Different emotions dripping as I read
With his every word said:

In the dim candlelight
I write

I want to tell you how much I have always and still love you
And that everything I let out is true

And I could imagine your face light up
My reflection in those eyes, as tears drop

Reminiscing the first day we met
As I called out your name, a lot of things I could bet

Like how everything stopped, you being the centre of my universe
Nothing else mattered, and I'd state it again, verse for verse

Hearts beating in the same rhythm
Taking the same breath, and becoming breathless the same time, everything becoming dim

Except you
And I felt it so true

Loving you for who you are
Didn't matter if u were far

Even if I couldn't reach you
But you were you

As we touched, it felt so right
In your eyes, I saw that light

That'd I'd gladly burn in
As I felt, being reborn that way could never be a sin

Reading me past my secrets and ugly past
Thinking nothing could really last

But you stayed
Where I laid

Held me, warmth passing through those fingertips
Eyes holding mine, boring into my soul, seeing short clips

Of a future I had always wanted
But didn't think I was made for, feeling I was haunted

Undeserving of a love so pure
Showing me, my poison has a cure

Giving me a reason to live
Showing me I have everything to give

Kissing my scars, telling me how beautiful they were
Embracing it's ugliness and handling it with care

Waiting patiently in the dark, after leaving you out in the cold
Knowing I'd still come for you, without the need to be told

But, I...