~ morning ~

Steady as my eyes open, ready for a new day.

I scan the dresser and take my phone in hand.

The screen displays to me the time, its 10.07am.

... I best take my tablets now whilst I feel fine. Like the doctor said.



~ midday lunch ~

Today was the usual, senses blurred and broken.

Forever on the cusp of feeling overwhelmed.

Fuck these feelings I hope they go away.

... I best take my tablets now before it gets worse. Like the doctor said.



~ afternoon ~

A sharp prodding sensation that brings forth a shroud of anxious panic.

I know ive had my tablets to this point but fearing the hellish schzo-characters antics.

... I conclude that its time I take more medication, like the doctor said.

~ night ~

Darkness claims its capture over the room walls and alongside my frantic thinking mind.

Thinking too fast and hoping to see better days through time.

I conclude tomorrow will be just like today however becos my entire life has been one drawn out arduous up hill climb.

... I best rush now and take more tablets to dull the full impact, like the doctor said.



~ bed time ~

Finally I'm drowsy enough to get some sleep.

Recalling how I face my illness and lost yet again.

One more day thrown to waste, desire to change.

Change my usual into unusual for a fresh start and endless prayer to exchange.




... I best take my tablets now, like the doctor said.