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Depressive mood
When I was child , I only demand what's I like, I always Happy .
I only looking for my father's mood , if he is in good mood , it's time to get something from my wish list.
No worry in life, only joy .
Stress and anxiety start entering in my life when I was student.
My exam is my cause of worry but I don't care as I am. best student in class.
Now I am young, ready to start my professional career
My boss is my mentor, I am learning and learning to groom myself as good Manager
Days past by , my responsibilities are my shadow, never leave me alone.
It's like running train, each compartments are passing with by throwing new challenges,
My balance sheet is my beating of heart
if my return on investment is good my heart is beating like music
But sounds like African drum if not,
life was running with sounds of sitar and African drum
I could realise now how good was my childhood.
Now to catch sleep sometime, no option , alcohol is my tonic to deactivate over reacting mind,
I was earning handsome salary
My luxary is weekend parties and my friends.
Still I am dynamic and ambitious
enjoying great life of an executive

Now I am married and entering in a new world
it's like rain in full sunshine
What's role I should play, my job and my family.
I started dribbling between my family and work , but no goal to score.
Mind is stretched like elastic band
Clarity is like dark black clouds of monsoon, no shine of bright sun
Bussiness pressure is sucking my blood and increasing my BP
My mood is not in my control, my nagging wife is not leaving any room to relax my mind
Stress is now stimulant for inspiration
switching mood is now like loadshedding no switch to control
Holidays are for boosting energy and to rejuvenate mind and body.
My wife and me reaching to fine dining restaurant for a candle light dinner, to settle all family issues
Boss is expecting always right decision and right investment
some time fortunate, some time not
All ingredients of life is enough to create stress and no room to discharge
Anxiety,. depression is part of daily life , never leave me alone
Don't worry be happy is now mantra for my life.
Amit