#FutureSelf
How did i survive those old days?
I wonder how can I blame others
For my insecurities that was imbeded
From my childhood...

I was raised in patriarch culture
Thinking a girl must fight for her rights
She is not entitled to leadership
Nor being independent
If you want to survive,
You must have coaurage to rebel against your father's choices for you, defend against your brothers excuse and protect yourself from your husband's tantrums

I have watched my mother suffered, almost every day, taking of all the blames of being a woman, not utter a word against this monarchy rule of family setting. Sometimes I saw her tears rolled down from her cheeks and wanted to help her in her helplessness. When she said, u deserve a better life than me.. I cried almost all nights thinking about all of her trauma..

I promised her that I would protest if same thing will happen to me in future. I promised that I will not cry alone and suffer insted I will tell the whole world that I deserved to be treated as human being.. I deserve to be treated with respect and dignity..
I promised my self I will not only earn my living but will earn my independence as well..

Things turned out to bee worst in my case.... I dad was a monarch but my husband turned out be a dictator..
While I was thinking of democracy inside family setting I got trapped inside an abusive dictatora rule..

Comparing both, I found out there was at least freedom of oponion inside my dad's rules all thouth his opinion matter more but in Dictagors rule, freedom of speech is a crime.. Oponion doesn't matter.. And a...