Mama's On the stretcher because the cancer is taking over her body......
I'm starting to come something I said I've ever become a alcoholic....
Because life is shity...
And people lie.....
Just like maggots....
I feel like cheating on my girl
I say I love her every time she asked me.... but sometimes lie.... because I feel like the feeling is gone..... it's lost Deacon side of this Valley of emotion and frustration...
So I pour another glass of Hennessy for temporary relief.... Alyssa I feeling empty I don't know what to do anymore
I forgot to mention I'm a poet this is what I post to feel when I'm feeling down....
Alyssa you tell me what is the cure anymore....
From this virus of hopelessness.....
I am only 22 I don't think I can live it to I'm 23 how I am carrying on I won't make it until the morning..... this time they won't revive me I won't be repair like the Tin Man from The Wizard of Oz.....
Sometimes I have visions of my death getting hit by a train now I'm shopping in traffic.....
Because business is booming....


Nothing makes sense anymore in the eyes of a  poet.. I am writing this on the toilet because I had to take a s*** just to get it off my chest........ I would like the work it's getting sloppy maybe I should drop the pencil to fill the bucket of. Shame and my lucid dreams I carry on this long journey.....  this vessel I called my mind.... 

I tried to pick up broken shattered mess to live another sunrise for you dear Alyssa

But the dead still haunts me in my dreams

I try try try so hard just to lose it all just like the high table inside the casino of Darkness