24 months of since I'm wearing my robes,
Yet, here I am still have not figure out a single thing I want in life.
Friends of my age starting to live their life,
Some marrying their love of life,
Some travelling before the pandemic,
Some living with their three rooms little castle,
I know, wise man said,
We all have our own time path.
But, I just can not shake this shame I got hidden.
I pretend I am okay.
But everyday I woke up feeling a failure.
My families thought I had figure out my future,
The days I got the email, confirming I have been offered 3 years of pursuing knowledge.
Only they do not know was,
Part of me was not there,
There is something I want, and I am being coward,
To listen to the majority voice.
And here I am fast forward.
Living not knowing what to do with my life.
© vardeloy