A chance encounter, I walked in on a whim,
Our eyes locked and in that moment you took me in..
You chose me, made that very clear,
Yet I couldn’t comprehend that you saw something different than what I see in the mirror.
My ears couldn’t take the compliments your lips allowed to escape,
My heart fought them off, but they made my soul quake!
It all sounded like pretty lies to me
But I smiled as I responded so awkwardly.
And then something snapped inside me, I needed those pretty lies,
I was conflicted by my doubt in your words when you possessed such honest eyes.
My weakness exploded in me as you explained how YOU would devour me and I hated that I had to know,
When everything in me wanted to scream NO!
My heart declared how it could not take another loss,
My Brain scornfully told it to shut the fuck up and take the pleasure..ignore the cost.
Sometimes I fail my heart so miserably,
When I give into the bad thoughts my brain uses to tempt me.
I really didn’t think you’d show,
Was hoping you would be the disappointment I expected from Go.
Insecurities creeping up within me..
While you climbed my stairs so confidently.
You touched my body like you knew me, like it had been something you desired for so long,
But none of that made sense, the pleasure I felt was so wrong!
Then we parted ways and I expected to never see you again,
Another one night stand to check off, and my proof needed that we came to a quick end.
A few weeks of silence, sometimes my thoughts wondering to what you may be up to,
Secretly hoping fate would give me another opportunity with you.
But you were distant, didn’t really show anymore interest at all
And my heart screamed I TOLD YOU while my brain said he’s nothing to stress at all.
I hated that Heart even felt she had the right to put a voice to the situation!
Why couldn’t she be colder, like Brain and accept you were a wicked temptation?
Only to have you invite me over and falsely thinkin you would quickly cancel on me after all,
Fighting the excitement of finally having you inside me again to accepting you were just lonely and wanted another easy booty call.
There had been no other indication that you thought of me at all since our first meet,
But my heart suddenly excitedly believed different because...