Dear Roni,

I have been skipping meals for some days now. Call it hunger strike. To what cause? How should I know. You know I just do things for the heck of it. Whenever I got really hungry though, I tell myself, there are a lot of people who are starving, I must starve with them. Because really why do I deserve to eat? All I cause is nuisance and I hate how much aware I am that I am one.

I hate how I can't help but need their help. This isn't pride, well, I don't really know what to call it. But I don't hate receiving their help because of my pride, I hate receiving it because I despise them. Their help is an...