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Nostalgia ❤️‍🩹

I swear,
I can still feel your arms around me.
Your hug's so tight,
but this choking feeling is from within.
I swear,
I still feel your heat on the other side of the bed.
And I see you sometimes.
I still smell you on the pillows.
My therapist says it'll all go away.
But, will it?
What if I don't want it to?
It hurts.
Especially on days like these...
Your anniversary is around the corner.
And here I am still deciding on which flowers to bring you.
From time to time,
I see you in my dreams.
I see myself losing you all over again.
I promised you I'd catch you whenever you fell.
But this time around,
When you jumped,
I came too late.
Perhaps,
Tonight when you visit my dreams,
You'd tell me what drove you off the cliff.
I miss you.
I still do.
© Bellenoire🖤